Wow, just wow. 16 months ago I had a closed mindset towards everything in the “drug” world and had only seen pot a few times. Now I am enjoying the plant based medicines with a radically open mind. A few months ago I went all in when I was pulled to Ayahuasca and now I am on a 12-week journey of micro dosing Psilocybin (magic mushrooms). It is quite the experience and one I feel to share with you along the way, simply as a way the universe can use my experience to possibly release some dogma, the same dogma I strongly held prior to.
A few basics first. Micro dosing can be used for a different variety of psychedelics and in my case, mushrooms. The dosage varies per person but is typically a tenth of the moderate to heroes dose. It is a mild amount and does not, done correctly, produce a high or magical state but rather just a heightened state of being. A good friend of mine put it this way. Think a nootropic but a bit stronger and for the entire body, not just the brain. You are able to live your normal life with normal duties. The typical results after a 12-week dosing are amazing. People improving and/or healing past trauma, PTSD, ADHD, depression and so much more. Just spend a few minutes on google…
For me, it was another thing that I felt I needed to do. My soul seeking to express itself, to feel its higher self. I do not feel that I have healing to go thru or radical emotional shifts needed but rather just seeking to know more of me. I do believe it will be a great pairing with the Ironman training I am doing right now and am excited to see if I can notice any benefit’s with it.
Now, week one. I will probably end of doing a separate post of each week, divided into A and B as I am doing 2 doses each week.
A:
This was my very first and I did not know what to expect. I took approx 1 mushroom and mixed it with just hot water creating my magic tea. I sat on the couch and felt it come thru my body. My entire body felt charged and my mind heightened quite a bit. Buzzing might be the most fitting description. It was just under overwhelming. I felt very much “in charge” but definitely not used to the added feeling. It felt really good to just sit and notice the world. Nothing big to note on this outside of my body and being feeling powerful.
B:
I took this dose at my office prior to work and it was just a slightly smaller amount than dose A. This time I read (Conversations with God) and wanted to journal but simply couldn’t put words to anything. The feeling was similar to the dose A but felt much more natural. I absolutely felt at home. I sat in my chair and meditated a bit. That was amazing as I could let go of life very easily so in essence, could have a deep meditation very quickly. I did this several times over the course of 30 minutes just to feel it. I kept wanting to pick up a pen and journal but could not find any words to describe any of the feelings. Life just felt good and whole.
I decided to get up and move around a bit and played with Gambit, my German shepherd dog, a bit and noticed that our connection was very simple. Just a clean and undivided love. Nothing of the human confusion of all the ambient thoughts that we add to every experience. No judgment, just him and I enjoying the moment of now together.
Next, I decided to enter my work world and experience that. I sent a few emails and worked up a couple of quotes and everything felt rather effortless. Nothing much different but rather everything just went rather easily.
Next was a trip to a job site before I had a coaching session with my run coach. During the drive there I noticed then that absolutely nothing could bother me. I had a homeless person drive his bike right in front of me briefly and although it wasn’t a danger of me hitting him event it was one of those things that could’ve been me noticing the “stupidity” of his actions. But now it was simply me noticing him and smiling at him as I recognized a bit of his mindset that corresponded with his actions. Not once did I feel any separation with him. It simply was.
As I left the job site I tried once again to put words to the feelings and ended up with this description.
There was total acceptance of everything that was, thus eliminating all judgment as well as the need to attach time to anything. This was a total flow of life. Since I was accepting everything I had nothing but LOVE for everything and everyone. It very much brought to the forefront my feelings that ayahuasca left me. Massive love for absolutely everything. A feeling that just feels so good. My entire body, frequency, and vibration are felt. I could feel energy throughout my entire body. Simply amazing. It is who I AM, feeling my higher self, and that is a state of being that you can only describe as feeling. Words do not touch this realm.
Now as I sit at the keyboard thinking about what to write next I have only feelings. I have not ever been able to translate feeling into words. It is like everything that you are, joy, light, and love, is accelerated and inflated to a point that transcends the process of thinking thru everything.
Later we will go into week 2. Until then,
Light and Love
